No one said it would be easy

I don't know where to begin. I have left this blog linger far too long and it became an albatross around my neck. Kung Fu has been a big part of my life and who I am that leaving it behind had a huge impact on my view of who I am and what I have become, I read your chatter on the my emails and feel so detached from everything. I miss being a part of everything and everyone. Every day I ask myself "how can I reconnect with you all and how can I inspire myself to continue." Silent River is made up with great people. The building is just a reflection of how you all feel. Like a church is just a building without it's congregation, I think the same applies to Silent River. So my big question is "is any body listening and if you are throw me a life line please." I watch a lot of classes on the web cam but something is always missing. The interaction between us and the connection with each other.This is really hard. I have been trying to practice on my own and with no feedback or someone beside me, well it's hard. I was doing a lot of walking, but even that has become limited. Randy is back on the road again and I do not feel safe leaving Lacey in the house alone while I'm out. I am home schooling her this term so where I go she goes except she doesn't like walking. I know I have to get out and do something. We just moved into a golf course community. so I am going to gather my courage and see what they have to offer. Golf.... well I'll never know unless I try. I imagine they will have something to start with, something Lacey and I can do together. There is miles oops, kilometers of paved trails to bike ride on and I know my dog needs the exercise, not me of course, ha ha. or swimming although the water is a bit cool now, but once I get going it warms up. So I guess I do know where to start I just need to push myself once again out of my comfort zone. It will have to be next week though Lacey is down with the flu/cold this week and doesn't have the energy to leave the house. I know excuses excuses. I made a promise to myself as soon as she's well I will try something with the golf course. Wish me luck Sifu Linda Shipalesky P.S. I so do not miss the SNOW !!