Remaking myself

When I sat down to put thoughts to words and tried to find the right direction to take,I realized that I didn't have to say anything profound or have a cool antidote. All I really needed was honesty within myself. Now that's a tall order.My mind goes in a million different ways and I realize that I'm a bit of a scatter brained person. One thought leads to another and then off in a tangent. I know from the people around me that I do this a lot. Some times I feel if I don't say what I'm thinking right that second I'll loss that thought forever.You know how it is, maybe it was really important or maybe, more likely it was not...wait a minute I think I just did it again...did I?So staying focused on a goal is a real challenge to me.I try to invent different ways to remind myself on what that goal is.More likely that not I loss focus and need to be reminded on what the goal was.All through my Kungfu training I have had great people around me. Instructors , mentors if you would like to call them that, but along with that were fellow students.People who can show me every day what my goal is.Inspiration still comes from the most unusual places.I am a shy person and have always had to work at being more out going. I love people and the way they interact with the world around them.This more than not is where my goals are reinforced every day.Lots of days its the student that has the beautiful forms , who has a great eye for detail who will inspire my goal. But I find it is the person who has to over come a major injury, the person who is not naturally flexible, the one who can't seem to translate what they are seeing and making the adjustment to their own bodies that catch my eye.Here is where I see myself in my training and am able to push on.My goal most days is to have their kind of courage to go on no matter what and maybe I too will be as determined as that student. So I guess in a round about way my goal is to keep open minded, and humble enough to learn where the lesson is been thought this day...